It's a sad day when you loose a friend!!!

Never have I missed a friend
as much as I miss you
And never have I been so lost
and not known what to do

Never have I missed a friend
so badly now he's gone
And never has life felt so sad
Lifes never felt so wrong

Never have I missed a friend
so much to make me cry
And never have I been so sad
over such a short goodbye

9/11

Today as i'm sure you all know is a sad day for the world 6 years ago today the twin towers came down and thousands of peoples life changed forever!
I would just like to say we haven't forgotten you and that you will always be close in our hearts!!


YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN BY "JESSICA ANDREWS"

I thank fully didn't know anyone that died in the twin towers attack, but i do know some people who did so for all those who died the song above is for you!

A Poem for Jessica and Roger!!!

I wrote this poem when my heart got broke by the one man i never thought would betray me! I have decided to post it now because although it still hurts i'm trying hard to move on and make something new for my life! (And for some therapy i suppose)



As I lay among the darkness, as the lightning lights the sky,
I can't stop thinking about him, though I still don't know why.
After all you've hurt me, with all the lies you said,
The memories still replay over and over in my head.

After all the tears I've shed for you, after all I've cried,
I am still in love with you, through the hurt and lies.
I can't stop loving you, for every time I see you
I seem to fall in love again just when I think it's through.

Loving you all through the day and night,
Only you keep me in life's lonely fight.
Going away makes me feel depressed and blue.
Although you continue to look at me too.

No one else could ever replace my love for you.
Absolutely no one could seem to be the same.
No one could ever live up to your name.
Don't leave me here; I'm just so ashamed.

Everyone in the world can't live up to you,
Right now I need you to just love me too
I don't know why I can't sop this love
Kindness made you for me from above.
Any sign of affection is enough for me.



I'm sure your all wondering about the reference to the pictures well it's a long old story, but just know that they mean alot to me!

In my darkest times i wrote quite a few poems and through out the next few days i will share them with you all they are not just sad ones there are some happy ones too!!!

Welcome to the world!!!!

Well hi people i would like to introduce my gorgeous god daughter her name is Kara Elouise Mae Ferguson-cope! She was born weighing 5lb 11oz at 21:05 on thursday 6th september at medway hospital!

Isn't she just adorable! after a traumatic arrival into the world and 3 days overdue she decided to put in an apperance with a little help from the doctors and midwives she is safe, healthy and well! I would just like to say Congratulations Mandy and Brian on such a beautiful baby after everything you've both been through she is just a testimony to your brilliance and enjoy every minute i hope she brings you the happiness you both deserve!! I'm also not forgetting you Zoe congratulations on a lovely new sister!!!!!! Thank you all 3 of you for the honour of asking me to be her god mother she is a gorgeous baby!!!!